Thursday, February 10, 2011

The Emotional Aspect

I watched something yesterday that took me to a bad place. That's the only way I can describe it, it just killed all motivation to do anything last night. I waited too long to eat lunch yesterday and my intention was to go home early, eat a "light" dinner (which ended up being a salad from Chipotle)sit for a few and go to Zumba at 6:55. Well that didn't happen. As I ate, I watched this thing and by the time I was done, I felt sick. I ended up talking to a friend about something unrelated for a few minutes, but when I got off the phone I just cried...and threw up. *sigh* (Let's be clear, I didn't throw up because of what I ate, I threw up because I was crying so hard)

I didn't have any motivation to do ANYthing last night. I know that I read something somewhere that exercising helps with situations like this because of the release of endorphins, but how do you even get motivated to start? I swear, if I would have had any unhealthy snacks in the house last night, it might have been a full-on binge fest, but thankfully, I've purged my kitchen. I stayed up and watched a few shows, then went to bed.

For me, the struggle is not just nutritional or physical, but emotional as well. I think that the emotional aspect is the hardest part. Sometimes I'm just not as in synch as I want to be, have to be successful. I guess being in a place where I can recognize it and not allow myself to spiral out of control is half the battle, right? LOL


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